07/11/2017
So it's official. We have to move by September 12, 2017. So we're downsizing, liquidating and closin' up shop. (Actually I don't really think it ever got opened.) Although, I'm feeling very heartbroken about having to leave, this place has offered me a chance to develop some creative skills as far as gardening and other stuff. I had wonderful landlords and I am blessed to have ever been able to have such a wonderful home to raise my beautiful children in. Now, I don't think I will ever quit with the plants. It's like an obssession for me. Also, it is so satisfying to go out to your yard and pick the fruit or vegetable off the vine and know that it's not full of chemical bugkillers or other yucky stuff! I tried to use composting of kitchen and plant materials, along with fireplace soot, newspaper, kelp, bird p**p, algae, crustacians and river mud, or whatever I could get my hands on that I knew was good for gardens. I collected worms and threw them in my backyard and compost piles. If you've driven by and seen the front yard, I really don't know why last year it looked wonderful and this year it looked like weeds. I did spend a whole lot more time weeding. The year before was when I found out the group, "Cleaning Up Antioch, One House at a Time" targeted my house and that hurt because that also was intertwined with my personal life and my kids. I would never wish any of that on anyone. It was awful and really a terribly mean way to go about expressing how someone feels about someone elses habits. The best way to get a message across is to come right out and say it. While that's hard to do sometimes (for me, too, esp-I'm not adept in the art of communication, I've always been the quiet one), you really shouldn't go make a whole gossip column behind someone's back and tell straight up LIES for the whole community to wonder about. I have learned a lot of lessons, esp about how people can be so cruel and heartless. My children have had to absorb a lot of pain also. I KNOW I did the best that I could in the situation I found myself in because I was scrambling and I didn't know what to do. I tried to do the right things but esp as a parent, you don't know exactly what to do. and then others want to step in and judge you and give you a whole new set of problems to deal with. I pray no one else ever has to deal with breast cancer, domestic violence and child abuse, addictions, CPS and their false accusations and claims. While I prayed for help and I know I made my needs be known, they took my children away while I struggled to figure out my situation and tend to my medical treatment and surgeries. While, I feel still very undecided on what to do, I decided that I want to become an advocate for others who find themselves in similar situations. They DO appoint you a lawyer but often times you find yourself with no one on your side at all, no matter if you were in the right. Juvenile court is an ugly and cruel place to be when you have no support. It's even worse when you find out the support you had never existed. So if anyone is out there and needs an ally or a friend to go to court with or help in filing paperwork, you can post here or private message me.
Anyways, I also wanted to put the message out there that I'm looking for housing, probably a 2 bedroom house or apartment that takes section 8, located anywhere from Antioch to Marysville. Thank you.
