10/30/2025
Just wanted to repost. Matt you will never be forgotten! Forever 23
Well, today is the day. 3 years ago, on the 22nd of April, 2022, My son Matt died. Matt took a Xanax that was laced with Fentanyl. I found him laying on the floor in not a good state. On this day my whole world was turned upside down. The shock of seeing your first-born laying on the floor dead is the most fu**ed up thing a parent can ever see (Sorry for the foul language). A bunch of you have followed my story and pray for me. Thank you so much. Your prayer for me has brought me through till today and without it, ya I might not have been here. I will tell you what I've learned through this nightmare.......First and number 1. God is all you need. ALL people, family, all love ones, close friends, ALL will let you down but God never will. NEVER. 2. Matt was murdered......I'll leave it at that. I thought about taking this individual out, but God made me come to my senses, and brought Romans 12:19 to mind. If you know this verse, you understand, if not, go look it up. his will be way worse, so im trusting in him for this one. 3. Addictions and overdoses are in all families and it needs to be dealt with sooner than later. 4. It can happen to you. Never in my mind did I ever think that I would be a parent of a dead kid. The worst club to ever be in. 5. It can and does break up marriages. For me, well thats personal but it was a contributing factor. 6. I have to take blame in most of this nightmare. I believe if I was harder on Matt and enforced the rules more, maybe this wouldn't have happened. 7. Learned to forgive myself for my failures as a parent/father. 8. Know 100% that I will see my son again. 9. Forgive the individual that gave him the drugs and left him to die. 10. And lastly and the most important thing I've learned is to be a better parent to Kaylee and Zach......Don't sweet the small things because guess what, those small things are just that. Death of a child is the #1 worst thing that can happen to you. So, small things, anything but the loss I'm speaking of is just a small thing. Not worth worring about. Love you all that are pulling for me and I pray in Jesus name that he protects all of you and your families. Thank you! Love you Matt, miss you...Dad