08/12/2024
Good afternoon, everyone. Thank you so much for all your love and support. I know many of you have tried to reach out to me, but right now, I can't see or talk to anyone. Please forgive me.
Thank you to my beautiful blessing, my daughter Meggan, who has been facing everything for this incompetent mother. Thank you, my love, for the most beautiful send-off you put together for dad.
Thank you to everyone who attended my Paulie's funeral and those who could not but kept us in their prayers and those who contributed. I will forever ask God to bless you forever more. I deeply, wholeheartedly appreciate you for being there for my Paulie, who believed he was left alone in his last moments. I am still unable to come to terms with the events, and I am still blaming myself with his loss. But I want to trust and believe God's plan, I still can't understand what that plan still and as much as i want to go with him, I know I still have much to do here with my babies. I will honor my Paulie's wishes to see and care for Ashton's kids ( as we often joked around , hoping he is the last to give us grandkids). The only regret I used to have was not starting medical school at UMDNJ. Yes, I passed my Mcat and was accepted, but I had Meggan and thought I could go lager....anyway. now my biggest regret is not being there for my Paulie more, I know what depression and ptsd are, but I was selfish, I was thinking too much about myself. But God has a plan, right?
I am grateful to my Lord for the amazing 4 kids he has given us.
I miss you every second, my Paulie, I am so sorry for not embracing you more, I am sorry for making you think you were alone. I will see you soon, babe!
