07/15/2023
I've contemplated for the last few days weather to reply to posts and comments said about me and my business or ignore the whole issue completely. There are quite A few issues with some of what I read. And whether it be half truths, Exaggeration, or just flat out b.s. one thing about all of them is.....they aren't wrong.
I have made poor decisions in both my personal life and professional life within the last couple of years which has affected my quality of work, my relationships with both clients and friends, And most importantly, my family. There are a lot of factors that are unknown that tie into reasoning and decision making the past few years But to sum it all up....I was wrong. And for those reasons I am sorry. I am a small businesses and sometimes things happen such as non payment from complete jobs or a family emergency. Ect, no matter the issue I made my problems my clients problems. I let my ego take over and could not admit when I couldn't finish timelines or underbid jobs and I couldn't swallow my pride and admit I needed to raise my quote or could not complete a job within the preffered time for fear of looking anything but perfect. And for whatever the reason was my solution was to take on more and more work just to stay afloat then to admit that I was sinking. And in doing so I have done the one thing I have tried to prevent. I failed. In every aspect. Both personal and professional. I may have my reasons for lack or communication, poor workmanship, and business management. But what I don't have, is an excuse. I let everyone down because I couldn't admit I was human and also made mistakes. And for that again...I apoligise.
So to my clients; past, present, and future. I will be taking this as an opportunity to restructure how I conduct business and to take the time to focus on my mistakes and learn from them rather then recreate them.
And to my family; I am sorry i never listened And did not take advice given because I couldn't let my ego down. And also for not putting you first above everything and everyone else. For not admitting when I no longer had control. I know I can be better and I will be.