20/01/2023
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21 Days | Day 19: From the Archives
These are the only paintings I have from my school days (apart from a hippo I painted when I was four that lives at my parents house).
Painted in 2008, I was 16 and studying Chuck Close.
At this time I really struggled to finish anything, I was so hung up on perfection that I think I was scared for something to be finished in case it wasn’t ‘perfect’ which made me anxious to continue or start painting anything (sounds bizarre I know!)
As a result I didn’t have anything to hand in and ended up failing my art A levels which meant I couldn’t go and study art at uni.
It wasn’t until I came back to painting in my early/mid 20s that I realised I had been focusing too much on the end result and the achievement of something looking ‘good’ rather the process.
Somewhere along the way we loose this, from making care free art as children to being worried what others think when we get older.
Once I realised this, and started making art for me, so many opportunities opened up as result.
I’m now an artist and art teacher and have daily battles with my students about throwing work in the bin 😂
The paintings are of my dad and my class mate (Helen Bur - now an international artist).
I still love portraiture but am now definitely a lot looser with my work.
Thanks for the trip down memory lane.