16/01/2025
Trigger Warning: ⚠️ SA ⚠️
Kia Ora SXIN Cosmetix Whānau 🩶
I am so overwhelmed with your support and beautiful messages 🥹 it really puts my mind at ease knowing the support is there and was there all along 😭 I was just too proud and too embarrassed to speak up back then.
In no way shape or form is this a reach for sympathy: I’m simply sharing my story because it’s relevant to why I started my business in 2023 and why I sell the products I sell or make for my customers🩶
First and for most, I am my first customer, so if it’s not working for me? it’s not going to work for you. I believe! And that’s why it took so many long months to try find the right formulas and recipes🤞🏼
Due to all the excessive stress and chronic depression, I started to lose all of my hair, like bad. Around 2023 July, which was 2 years exactly after my assault.
May of 2024 I was diagnosed with Alopeccia and basically lost 60% of my hair in the span of a month of being diagnosed💔 I was losing hair at an incredibly fast rate, I had beautiful thick black curly hair down to the bottom of my spine, suddenly my hair was falling out in clumps daily. And I had to cut it.
My whole season(2024) I hid my condition from everyone, my friends and family, I was more than embarrassed, I hid under my head gear for rugby all year, the excuses I came up with to not go out in public, it really ate me up. I spent hundreds of dollars I didn’t even have on solutions for my hair when my problems were literally sitting right in front of me, yelling and arguing with me everyday. Ironically.
That’s when I had the idea to develop a hair growth oil and to test it out on myself, many attempts later and of course with the help of Therapy I was finally able to see my hair grow back.
(Your hair is attached to your nervous system, so if your nervous system is shot? so will your hair follicles, especially if you continue to leave your mind in a constant fight or flight state.) *Thank you Therapy😘
But trust when I say this: my relationship wasn’t all bad, not even half bad, it just got us in the end: me and my now (ex)partner had it all, love, passion, our family, the home, money, cars, jobs, you name it.. we had it, but most importantly we had each other and that honestly was way more than enough for me. We were straight up un f**ken touchable*Excuse my language* we dealt with so much negative people over the years, jealous “friends”, bitter exes and fake relatives who honestly don’t even deserve to be named because you belong where we left you all when we did. But I know they just wanted to break apart what we had because it was real and genuine.
I love that man to the core: he was my dna but his outlook of me, changed my outlook of me, and he along with I, believed all the lies everyone was saying, despite me AND him knowing the truth.
To be honest, It was easier to believe all the lies and to be selfish and want to act out, Instead of continuing to have those hard conversations everyday and trying to fix what I had “broke”.
I’ll say this once and once only: Healers need Protectors! Because like moth to a flame, vermin and low vibrational people, they’ll want your light no matter the cost, and It’s not that he wasn’t a protector, he was: we were both just too young at the time to deal with a situation we couldn’t even comprehend individually let alone get through together 🩶
Now I know who I am as a person, and who I used to be? they are not even related😂 It’ll be the first time I say, I’m okay with who I was, she was very broken and did what she could, but who I’ll become is all thanks to that broken 24 year old.. who is now 27 and very selective of who gets to be in her energy and space.🌞
I can’t wait to introduce to you my new baby girl
✨Miracle Hair Growth Oil✨ I’ll have a better name and lighter introduction tomorrow Whānau, right now my eyes are full of tears and ready for a moe🤍 but if you’re this far in to my story thank you for staying with me I know it’s long one..
Please, be kind and love hard
Mahu
