12/13/2021
Every year since we moved in to house (almost 5 years ago), my daughter has had her room made over for Christmas. It’s that time of year and I promised her that I would do my best to make it happen again.
This time it’s different though.
I haven’t been able to work on a project since I had my hand surgery in August. I haven’t been able to do a lot of things since that surgery. The carpal tunnel surgery took well. The trigger finger surgery didn’t take, and actually ended up causing more issues. There are so many basic daily tasks that I can no longer do or have a ton of pain attempting to do. It took almost 12 weeks just to be able to write, and that is still touch and go. We were hoping that occupational therapy would help, but made no difference in the healing process.
I purchased her bedroom flooring on October 1st. It has sat in our garage since.
I have been dealing with so many health issues this year. I am both mentally and physically exhausted. I have shed so many tears because of my hand and the other issues.
My schedule for January is completely booked with appointments. I have revision surgery on the 21st. I knew something was off and didn’t feel right after the 8 week recovery period. On top of that, I have to have stomach surgery on the 13th, in hopes to eliminate the other health issues that I have been dealing with for over a year or so. Then of course all the pre-op / post-op, etc.. Just thinking about it is exhausting.
If I don’t try my absolute best to get this flooring done this month, it will be April or May before I could even attempt it….and she shouldn’t have to wait that long to have her new flooring. Plus, it doesn’t need to sit in the garage that long.
This is as far as I have been able to get in two days (a few hours each). I takes everything in me right now between my hand, stomach, pain in my legs, and overall energy levels.
It’s frustrating.
It’s depressing.
I’ve cried several times…for many reasons. It may not be perfect. It’s gonna take forever. I have to stop often because I’m in so much pain, but I have big faith in an even bigger God….and that’s all I need. I’ll get it done. It’s just gonna take a little while.