11/02/2022
I've been missing in action so much this year because of this insane pregnancy. I was so so sick for a long time and we had to let a lot of the homestead just go, the gardens, the turkeys, we barely could keep the grass mowed. But here we are 30 weeks already!!! I am counting it down and so ready to meet this boy! When this whole thing started, we were so full of fear and unknowns. Its been the most insane roller coaster of emotions imaginable, on top of grieving our two babies we lost within 6 months before. We had to make weighty decisions based on doctors information at the moment. A decision of choosing to give this baby the smallest fighting chance at the cost of my own health, or terminate because it was highly likely this baby would never make it. Having to have an outrageous amount of ultrasounds and genetic testing. Honestly I didn't think we'd make it this far. BUT God is so faithful. He worked a miracle that we don't understand and doctors are speechless with no explanation of what happened. He is carrying us through some of the darkest and most intense pain of our lives and teaching us more and more to trust in Him. I have wrestled with God more than I ever knew was possible and fought long and hard for every drop of faith I have, but that is a whole other story to tell another time.
We fully believe God has a grand plan and purpose for this special boy and cannot wait to watch it all unfold! Please pray that Ender continues to thrive and that birth is peaceful and that there would be no anxiety and fear.
I don't know what the next year holds for us as far as homestead life, but we plan on focusing on planting trees and building up a food forest area of the property. I know one day things won't be so hard and we can dive deep into making our dreams come true, but for this season of life we are just learning to be content and enjoy what we have now. If you're still here hanging in with us, thank you.
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If anyone would like to celebrate our little miracle boy Ender Wynn by sending a gift, here's my registry:
https://www.amazon.com/baby-reg/jennifer-johnson-january-2023-robertsdale/3CCBGULVWMNLP