06/06/2021
I originally was going to talk to you about harvest baskets. But, what’s on my mind is actually this: I’m afraid of what this “back to normal” transition will do to me and my family.
What happens when the confines of our homes are no longer a demanded priority and what happens when the values that we’ve accrued by choice, a forced respite, or otherwise, are shaken out again - when we introduce more outside influences, more access, more distraction, more pressure.
I was one that loved quarantine and am honestly a bit scared of what it means to go back into the world. (And no, I’m not an introvert.)
I was able to totally run away to the garden, cultivating a place that was so perfectly me. That priority was easy to have as a priority without the demands of outside life. As we re-emerge, as a state, as a country, some of my values are going to be pushed and challenged. It scares me a bit because it’s uncomfortable to swim against the current.
Life in town/the suburbs/the city isn’t designed to be spent at home. Small lots with larger and larger belts of concrete around them arent conducive to exploration. I loved so much that pandemic life meant a return to the yard, to resourcefulness at home. Living in the suburbs, I’ve had to work hard to create a space outside that beckons us, and I can feel more strongly than ever like the outside world is now tugging at the family.
There will be an inverse adjustment for me this round, in the undoing of the pandemic. I’ll just say honestly that it overwhelms me. I suppose the perceived threat is outside influence. My children are becoming of the age where I can see outside influence on them and that quite simply is hard.
However, that’s life. That’s growth and also opportunity.
We all got a glimpse into a different way of being the past year and it makes me think about how to live, how to be, what we value. How we lead and live rooted in the changes that made us better, when a world at large may be pushing us off balance.
Stay true my friends, and never forget, “when the world wearies, and society ceases to satisfy, there is always the garden”
-Minnie Aumonier