08/13/2025
From Moans to Murders
You sit there in your holy chair,
preaching balance,
preaching boundaries,
telling people how to stitch up
what’s been torn open.
But you,
you’ve turned lovers into lab rats,
love into an experiment,
me into your cautionary tale.
I remember when my name
was honey in your mouth,
when you screamed it so loud
the walls knew our secret.
Now it’s the stone
you throw through my windows,
the pain of remorse
spit back like poison,
my name bitter as burnt coffee
on your tongue.
You teach forgiveness
but practice the opposite,
slicing people clean out of your life,
then sewing their shadow into a villain’s coat
so you can wear it to your next sob story.
You were once a cathedral of light,
but when you walked away,
you lit the pews on fire,
called the smoke “closure,”
and told yourself the flames were holy.
Your therapy is performance art,
you diagnose the broken
while you break them,
you tell them monsters are made, not born,
but you make them anyway,
painting their faces on dartboards,
throwing your truth like knives.
I see you,
the taxidermist of trust,
the architect of aftershocks,
turning moans into murder scenes,
rewriting love letters into legal briefs
where you’re the hero,
and I’m the plot twist you had to survive.
So here’s my final note in your case file:
Your couch can cradle the weak,
your clipboard can collect their tears,
but your own shadow
still screams louder than your advice.
And every time my name
hits your lips,
remember,
it once made you tremble with joy.
Now it makes you shake
for all the wrong reasons.
From: Turtle Shepherd with Love